The fact that my actually weight hasn’t really changed doesn’t bother me at all. I have gained so much muscle and seen so much improvement, no numbers need to tell me different. I have struggled with what I consume and  I still haven’t quit gotten it all figured out but I have come a long way and don’t feel sick like I use to. I love my body except for the muffin top that wont budge. I ordered new running shoes ( Nike 5.0 running shoe ) because my current ones are for training and are flat so running on roads and trails will soon be a lot nicer on my body. I seem so out of shape when it comes to hiking and running but at the gym the elliptical, cardio and weights dont make my lungs close up. I have asthma and my inhaler helps, but running and all that just kills me, so gotta figure out how to fix that.

Edibles and I do not like one another

my babies <3

Yeah smoothies are definitely the culprit of me getting sick so often in the past. I can only have smoothies that don’t have strawberries, raspberries, blackberries, mangoes, overall any berry that has seeds. I can do well with bananas, blueberries, spinach, and greens though.

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Well that was interesting… I don’t know where my life is heading right now or what I am really doing… but I’ll just continue to go with it. I put my two weeks in at work but quickly had mental breakdowns with my manager and bosses, they already gave my hours to a new person but are keeping me around for whenever they need someone. I am not completely jobless so that makes me less freaked out. I have a job offer to do tough work at horse stables and gardening and all dat. I’m confused with guys and I just need a personal day soon to breakdown and cry. Life pulls itself together when i have those days. 

Progress

Gonna start doing squat presses a lot more and hopefully move up from doing only 45lbs

My hurs getting all long john
New leaf skirt!

Didnt get fired today but had god shoved down my throat. 

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