The book & movie for Tuesdays With Morrie and the movie Into the Wild really opened my eyes within this past week. It’s not about the destination, its about the journey.
I want to start a journal where I write letters to those who influence my life. Not sure if I would show the person it though.

Coulda sworn my bosses just made me on call… but I am on the schedule all this week except monday so… alright that’s cool I guess…

I am comfortable with my body and love it enough to post pictures of it occasionally whether or not it is of a rave outfit or an update on my body from being healthy… but half of my followers are creepy dudes who just want nudes… if you really want nudes of a fucking 17 yr old then go to a fucking porn site you fucks. I like being able to use this site as a way to vent, get motivated/inspired and to have a place of my own.

Grouse Grind tomorrow !!

The fact that my actually weight hasn’t really changed doesn’t bother me at all. I have gained so much muscle and seen so much improvement, no numbers need to tell me different. I have struggled with what I consume and  I still haven’t quit gotten it all figured out but I have come a long way and don’t feel sick like I use to. I love my body except for the muffin top that wont budge. I ordered new running shoes ( Nike 5.0 running shoe ) because my current ones are for training and are flat so running on roads and trails will soon be a lot nicer on my body. I seem so out of shape when it comes to hiking and running but at the gym the elliptical, cardio and weights dont make my lungs close up. I have asthma and my inhaler helps, but running and all that just kills me, so gotta figure out how to fix that.

Edibles and I do not like one another